officially closed again.

i'm happy with my life now.
although i havent achieved anything in this midterm break.
well i've lost my inspiration and interest to blog anything now.
so i guess i'll stop blogging for a moment.

所以我说呢。。还是打华语比较好，要表达的东西比较容易表达，虽然是有点麻烦。曾经也笑过一位朋友，笑他读独中又不要用华语，很吓虽的叻！
最近找到人生新目标，所以过得很开心，虽然不是什么大件事，但我相信人生是充满希望的咯。。。
不管是开心不开心的日子，我都开心地过了。我发现到我在开心的时候，都是自己在做一些无聊白痴的事，只要别人不会去做的事，我都会去做。但我真的只有在那个时候才是真正高兴的时候，原来我是注定走白痴的路线的叻。。。
有个朋友告诉我自己开心才是最重要，因为就是会笑容满面，别人看了也会高兴，当然那些疑心和心机重的人就会有别的想法，他们会不爽或嫉妒你的咯，哈哈！Smile will always be the best makeup. 只要开开心心的过日子，不用化妆也可以咯！
今天是家里很忙碌的日子，我还载了我爸一位脚受伤的朋友回麻玻叻，因为家里就只有我是的空的，妈咪还千吩咐万吩咐要我`驾慢慢！！哇劳！要我在告诉公路驾慢慢！但我还是照做咯。。。好歹车里有个受伤的人。驾到差不多要睡着了，超不爽一直给别的车割！明明半个小时就可以到的，我还多花十五分钟！详细的故事就不想讲啦！打字真的很辛苦叻！当然，回的时候就有点小迷路，毕竟人生地不熟，而且他家不是靠近市区，而是那种比较远的地方了。我只懂市区的路罢了。
我很懒惰要打了。。。
这些日子过得有点颓废，但。。。我喜欢！哇哈哈！
就到此为此吧，不要想念我了。
后会有期，有缘自然会想见。
不用见。

updates

there will be no updates for today...wakaka.

another post

alright since i'm in a very very good mood*in heaven*, i decided to post another stupid blog here. a very very quick post.
this morning i told kenari that her front hair looks nicer now if compared to the watermelon hair last 2 month ago. wahaha. that time she looked like soh poh and the zong guo wa wa.
Then she told me this time she cut the front hair herself...swt...
so so so....*evil laugh*, i was thinking if she able to cut her hair untill so nice, why don't i try myself too? may be will look mre nicer than her.
so...5 mins ago i cut my front hair too...oh gosh! haha! don't want tell u how it looks like.wakaka.
jz now one of my fren sms me 'pig tmr wanna go lib?'
i answered 'dont want'....
wtf y shud i answer her, she was asking a pig!
and if i answered her it juz means that i admitted i'm PIG!
ok see u tata!

“充实的一天”

今天又是过了充实的一天。。。所谓的充实，你该懂什么意思吧，哇哈哈！
不懂的话就让我来解释吧，在我的字典里，“充实”的意思就是做些无聊，没用，没带来好处的意思，（解释又有点不对了）总之就是跟正确的字是相反的。哈哈！
今天七早八早就醒来，差不多十一点酱吧，因为跟一班姐妹约好十一点去唱K。
本来有点不想去的，因为下雨天叻。。。超好睡的，金丝雀打给我我都没发觉到。
过后就逼自己醒来咯，因为我不想做FFG女王。
带着半开的眼睛驾车到DP，自己到了目的地还问自己‘EH，到了叻。。。“，很明显的，我根本还不清醒，在路上我是怎样驾车我真的不懂。我迟到了，酱就给她们多一点机会唱。
到了Dreambox自己又在那边绕了几圈，每次去就每次迷路！直到那位招待人员亲自带我去房间。好心。。。Dreambox就那么小间我还认不到路。
过后呢，就唱歌咯，自己明明唱了满多首歌，但是就是好像没人发觉到我有唱到歌，那个江山美人一直拿麦给我叫我唱，说我没有唱到。。。*流汗*。我明明手就那着麦克风的啊。。。
原来我就是那么的不起眼。。。不像那位好像大姐大的和酷大姐，唱得超大声的叻。。。
喉咙痛了咯。。。
回家就看戏睡觉发白日梦，我的一天就酱子过了。。。

来写篇感触良多的故事吧。。。第一篇

当我决定把一些自己的心情说出来时，那个时候也就是我放开一切和想通的时候。（总觉得用的句子超怪的，要表达的词语我想不起。。哈哈）总之我要讲的就是把一些曾经在乎然后变到不在乎。。。（越描越远）。哎哟。。。就是把东西讲出来，因为我放开了。（说来说去跟第一句没什么分别。。。）但是我想表达的东西又没有我说写的那么严重。哎呀算了，反正你明白就明白，不明白就不明白。因为我已经尽力了，我的表达能力真的是有限公司的。


进入正题。
说感情事吧，也不是真的是感情事，比较偏向友情吧。。。
最近有点心不在焉，神魂落魄的感觉。看我每天还可以嘻嘻哈哈的过日子，有点不可思议。真的很了不起叻。。。
把心情写下来，也许会比较好过吧。用华语，至少他看不懂。哈哈。
假设某个人为你做了一件别人会觉得很感动的事，你会怎样? 爽到。。。哈哈！从没想过会发生在我身上的东西竟然发生了。
一个曾经你对他有好感的人向你表白，别人都会说“你赚到了咯，比中头奖还爽！”我也酱觉得。。。哈哈！
但是呢。。。我很冷淡的拒绝了，也不知道是少了那根筋。
当他在网上暗示我时我若无其事的对待，，因为对我来说这是根本不可能会发生的事。反正我们从来没认真过。
从以前开始，每个向我表白的人，我都会以同样的方式带过。
1-装傻
2-跳去别的话题
3-直接骂他无聊
那时我只说了一句话“真心的话有本事就飞回来咯。。。”然后就熊猫摇屁股。反正我都是用开玩笑的语气来对他说。
当时他也只答“好啊`我飞给你看，你等我”。我还叫他去找高一点的建筑物，没有会飞不够高。我真的只是开玩笑罢了。。
第三天他就简讯跟我说他死不去，已经达到目的地。当时的我也没理他，直到他打给我的时候我才真的吓倒。。。说不出话了。
聪明的我还假装很镇定的样子，还问他回来的原因，他没说什么，只是傻笑了。最后还很不爽的问我多一次，我想了没想就拒绝了。
我真的不知道我在干什么。过后他只凝望着我，我也沉默下来了。我只是不懂过后要怎样去面对他，我很害怕会失去一位朋友。经验告诉我我将会失去他。
过后，他又飞回去了。我知道这明明是一个开始但我选择结束。
忽然有很不舍得的感觉。我知道我有伤害了一个人，我真的不想当坏人，但我真的没勇气去接受这一切，永远都觉得自己不配，没资格。。。
就让一切回到原点吧，总比失去一切更好。
现在听着“突然好想你”，有点要落泪的感觉。
是因为后悔？失去友谊？还是因为自己从来没检讨过自己而感到悲哀？我不知道。
只想说声对不起。

突然好想你
最怕空氣突然安靜　
最怕朋友突然的關心最怕回憶　
突然翻滾絞痛著 不平息最怕突然　
聽到你的消息想念如果會有聲音　
不願那是悲傷的哭泣事到如今　
終於讓自己屬於　
我自己只剩眼淚　
還騙不過自己突然好想你　
你會在哪裡　
過得快樂或委屈突然好想你
突然鋒利的回憶　
突然模糊的眼睛
我們像一首最美麗的歌曲　
變成兩部悲傷的電影為什麼你　帶我走過最難忘的旅行然後留下　最痛的紀念品
我們　那麼甜那麼美那麼相信　
那麼瘋那麼熱烈的曾經為何我們還是要奔向各算的幸福和遺憾中老去
突然好想你　你會在哪裡　
過得快樂或委屈突然好想你　
突然鋒利的回憶　
突然模糊的眼睛
最怕空氣突然安靜　
最怕朋友突然的關心最怕回憶　
突然翻滾絞痛著　
不平息最怕突然　
聽到你的消息最怕此生　已經決心自己過　沒有你　卻又突然　聽到你的消息

quick post

I haven't been saying the things I want to say and the trouble with that is that, if you wait too long, you don't want to say them anymore.
If you wait longer there isn't anything left to say.
See, there's not that much that needs to be said. Don't ya think so?
Some one who wants to be a writer should never learn that.
Luckily i'm not a writter.


Well this will be a quick post since i've got nothing to say.
I had fun in my past 2 days journey.
I've been waiting for the day for so long, and yes! i made it!
Proud to be a wanderer.
Thanx to B because he gave me a box of strawberry which he bought from Cameron highland.
Thank you so much!*kiss kiss*
Too bad i wasn't in melaka that day so my mum keep it in the refrigerator....not so fresh d...haha!nvm! still can eat!
Because of this strawberries i'm super happy and excited wtf i could not believe my friend still remember to buy something when he went for a trip.
There are only 3 main reasons ppl will buy something for me:
1) my birthday
2) i asked them
3) i forced them
But for this time, i never asked n never forced! i don't even know he went CH oso.

So, i enjoyed the strawberries...
I love to eat straweberries in this way...
Strawberry comes with sugar...have u tried before?
yes i eat it that way!

no mood blogging, will be continued next time.
signing off now...

maddest day

feel so miserable now...

I'm confused, very confused! Sigh...

I'm not sure what's wrong with me.

All the thoughts are driving me nuts.

I'm positive that it's my own problem. *pout*

Hope my mind will clear up soon.

clumsy me

dangerous car! almost caused me an accident at the traffic light n i tercut my finger too!gt black listed d. geram!


she looks clumsy ...clumsy punya superwoman...suit me.*grin*


bruises on my knee



Ohh man...not again!!!
I'm once again being clumsy. T.T
I knocked into a tiang on the road today...
okok, you can laugh as hard as you want...
Well, you see, I wasn't paying attention when I was walking on the street(near the GuanYin temple)...I was somehow, somewhat, having good time enjoying the clear blue sky and admiring the temple opposite the Guanyin temple....and a bunch of lengcai angmo-.-
Then...."BANG!!!" My leg hit hard on the tiang.
"OUCHH!!!"Are you alright? (my dad was literally laughing his head off)
"Yaya, I'm okay...(tot my knee hurt a bit though)
Ok then, let's go ...
Only when I reached home that I realised I had a slight bruise on my left thigh and it hurts, not too badly tho...But nah!!! eh but my knee still ok leh...
Last week the same things happened, i tercut my fingers.
First day i tercut my forefinger when i was driving my bro's car, well i don't know the name of the car. not famous one i think.
Second day i tercut my thumbs when i was trying to open a can coke. wtf rite? it's just a tin of soft drink. so kns...
and i 've just recovered frm the muscle pain after the intensive n crazy trainning...i so kesian. used counter pain for 3 days leh...
but i should be fine soon.
I'm a tough girl.
I'm super woman!
Just hope that I won't knock into tiang anymore.
Waa, I'm so CLUMSY!!!
Is there any cure for clumsiness and blur-ness??
I NEED IT URGENTLY!
Eh still remember Fergie's song -CLUMSY? i'm sure u know this song rite?
I used to love this song very much....how much? this much!!!!*open my arms n fully extend it* but after listening it for too many times, it's abit anoyying...but but but...somehow...i relike this song again!!! nenene
the lyrics -CLUMSY CAUSE I FALLING IN LOVE..." oh yes i'm in love now! congrate me!




coz of this temple i knocked the tiang..swt



admiring the shops 1 (someone might ask 'u r nt malaccan meh? y still take the picx)




admiring shops 2

big bunch of angmo in the shop


about the one i'm in love, juz for fun la k. i everyday oso in love one.

and about the taking pics one, i'm juz trying to make my blog more lively and colourful. so i'll just snap anything la...but ofcoz nt myself, coz i'm nt so self confident and i'm not ZLK (Narcissism) I tak cantik...eh i shud say i cantik, but not enough pretty to show my face here! haha thats better. ok i know someone is waiting to read me blog. wei...now i post it.

抄袭！！！！TMD！

最近好像很流行抄袭，讲真的，我很不喜欢，我很不爽！
抄袭什么我就不想说，当然不是在学业上，但私事我就会很在意！
难道你们就没有自己的想法和一点点的主见吗？抄了还很理所当然光明正大的给人看。
还自已为荣。。。真可悲！
自己知道自己是谁吧。
但这样也证明了我还是有值得别人去抄袭的一面。哇哈哈！
做回自己吧，把自己的想法用自己的方法呈献出来。
我是我，你是你。始终都是不一样的。
我自私，不想别人和我一样。
就这样。
最好不要再给我看到你们还做那种事。

save the green! save our earth!

haha i'm blogging in my lil brother's house now.

due to my brother and his housemate lazyness, their house is like.....after world war -2 , tak boleh tengok! u cnt even step on the floor, it's so....sticky and dirty.

so my parents decided to help them to clean the house. i got nothing to do coz i think the guys can clean it themself ma...so big already. so i just wandering around the house lo.hehe.

i went to a campaign last week , it's about save our earth. it's not me right? but yes i went to the campaign! don't so surprised . (coz i tot got free gift to take) hah jk jk! since i sayang the earth so much, so i think i needa do something to save the earth, i decided to change my background colour to green colour. haha.

tats all for today. later wanna go mv to buy new phone. so someone will say 'wa finally u goin to change ur phone!" not me la k....is my brother. ppl duit banyak ma...like me meh...alwayz must do pity face infront my parents one.lol

ok plant more trees leh...i must end up wif this sentence since this is the main point i wanna say.

tata.

你不爽，那就最好离我远一点

有些人就是很喜欢做一些令人为难的事。
当你没有做到他想/要你做的事时，他就会胡思乱想，有的没的，把一切事情弄得尴尬僵硬。
我也不知道说了几十次，我只想做我想/要做的事，你不爽，我也没办法，我为我而活，而不是为你而活。
随便你说我变了还是什么，我都无所谓，人言可畏，我不想讲多，更不想去解释那么多。
我承认我变了，但我只能说我很喜欢现在的我。
我变的更会想，不想以前只会看人家的眼色做人，受委屈也自己承受，只跟信得过的人说。我不想再过那种黑暗的日子。
我不想在你面前伪装着自己，那时还不够成熟的我，真的有够白痴。
我学会了很多东西，从一位朋友领悟了我从来没想过要去注意的东西。
所以我才开放了我的部落格。以前的我太会隐藏自己了，根本不想把自己的事说出来，只把一切写下来。
以前的我太怕受伤害，太过自我保护。
你每次都觉得我做错而怪我，难道你觉得你做对了吗？每次靠着自己的臭脾气和脸色令别人来迁就你，你以为这样子就很厉害吗？别人迁就你是因为他们会想，不想惹事生非，而你只是那只没脑的那一位。
我想讲的东西我就讲，不想讲的我就不讲。你没权利去牵涉我的事。
经过了太多事情，多得是你们想象不到的，我变得坚强，不再为一点小事而世界末日。
我相信失去的东西是很难再找回的，即使有但也不可能再一样。
失去得太多，所以我很珍惜现在所有的一切。
不想再回头看了，看多真的很累。头也会很酸的。
情绪化的事就到此吧。
现在过着自我享受的生活。nenene.

说说昨天说发生的事吧。。。酱子心情会好很多！哈哈！
昨天真的有够忙咯。。。明明身边的一班朋友没在，但到目前为此好像是我讲最多话的一天。早上又睡不醒迟到咯，也不会迟很多，因为我够快手快脚！都怪A咯，昨晚明明只是问他一点点东西，然后就不懂从几时开始我们就不停的聊，聊到东南西北时已经凌晨两点多，一直说要睡觉最后还是聊到四点左右。够力咯。。下次少一点问他东西比较好。
那天的课很少人上，因为每个都在家拼命啃书，只有我在那边逍遥自在。。。哈哈！虽然明明是最忙的一天，但可以说我一整天都在讲话。
由其是下午的时候，竟然跟ST和 N坐在最后一排又在东南西北，根本就把老师当透明的咯。。。反正我看根本就没人听课吧。。。有去也只是坐在那边读书而已。
至于我们三人呢。。。差不多要给人家打了。前面坐着三位厉害的（叫我表妹的那两位和另一位）。人家在读书，我们就在那边聊得特别大声，看他们的脸还是一脸不爽的样子。哈哈！才不管他们那么多，反正都将厉害了，少做几题不会死的阿。。。
过后在班上又做了一件白痴和兴奋的事。。。（这就不多说啦）用嘴巴和手讲会比较明白。
但这次不同的是有人陪我做这样无聊到头顶的事咯- 那就是N。。。太感谢你了。害我爽到不行。（高潮就在这里）
聊了有一个小时之后我们就走出去，那里知道那么巧遇到K。他说我瘦了。哇我一整天都在吃他竟然说我瘦！！！聊了过后就还想回去班做一位学生该做的事情。
哪知道另外一位朋友就问我一些他不会的题目，我就很理所当然的教他咯。。。教是教，可是就不知道从及时开始我们又聊到不懂哪里去了。。。
所以呢。。。最好改次不要再跟我讲话。
到了六点回家时，才走出课室又看到K，我们又开始废了，他还叫我去拍日本照。。。拜托。。。对我来说拍那种照是给那种小妹妹，甜甜可爱，美丽或LALA的女生。打死我我都不要去，要去也直接去日本啦。。。不想把钱花在这种地方，太假了啦。哈哈！
过后才在那边后悔自我检讨浪费一整天的时间来聊天。真失败！（反正不是第一次自我检讨了啦。。。）哈哈！

星期五-没上课！哈哈！老师取消了哦。。。都怪我太嚣张做天到处玄耀我今天没上课。到头来七早八早就被几个人吵醒了。第一个就是我姐。。。六点多就打给我说她在车站。回家后睡了一下子又给WY的信息叫醒叫我去打球，过后又N和ST！！！！然后老爸也要我帮他拿一些资料去他朋友的车行。。。真是有够累！好歹我昨晚兴奋得睡不着，很迟才入眠的叻。。。

所以呢，故事到此为此，现在也够迟了，我不想和安安佳佳做朋友。=p

今天我想打华语

昨天我做了一件对我来说很有意义又很兴奋，对别人来说是很白痴，很变态，很神经，很无聊的事。
什么事呢我就不想讲啦。。。没有又会滔滔不绝的说。。。然后又自己在那边发白日梦。。。
话说回来，最近很会发白日梦，还会一个人笑的那种叻。。。就像昨晚吃饭吃到一半就在那边发梦，又一个人笑，嘴巴就装到一大丢东西又没咬。。。手就一直在挖盘里的饭，真的是最高境界了！更离谱的事我这样还维持了还蛮久一下，过后才被我妈叫醒。
妈：喂你在做么！做么一个人笑？手还不停的挖，盘要穿洞了啦！
我：（死都不认账）我哪有笑，我在咬东西啦。。。黏牙齿我用舌头弄掉而已吗。。。
（明白我的人你应该知道什么事了吧。。。）
还有啊。。。最近也不知怎么搞，我差不多要给那两个无聊到头顶的男生逼疯了。他们真的是。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。（我找不到形容词形容了）。懂他们的人应该了解我的感受！！！不对，应该是说我终于能够了解你们以前的感受。真是辛苦你们了。很够力咯。。。
今天跟金丝雀一起回家，又开始昨天和今天的故事。。。驾车时还很激动又兴奋，但我还是很平安的把她送回家，我也很平安的到家，车也很平安的到家，我们都很平安的到家。我觉得现在的我又有点失控不理智了，改天再说吧。今天又是忙碌的一天。
大家都要快乐。你快乐我就快乐。

leave me alone

bad things always happen on me..
i am lost..
and i am so tired..
too many burdens..
too many pressure..
too many people telling me to do something i don like..
too many stupid things are surrounding me..
too many hopes and expectation from people where i cant achieve..
just let me be alone pls?
too many things in my mind..
i am mentally and physically exhausted..
i just wanna runaway from it..
i aint need anybody..
from today onwards...i wanna love myself more..sometimes..
is just not worth it...
when you are reading this..
i decided to not give a shit about u anymore..
u wanna do it..or not..i am not going to give a fuck...
i am too tired for everything..
i am just going to let myself breathe..slowly but steady..
and u... stop being so immatured, u hurt lotsa ppl without realising it...
u no longer a high school student...
please don't make ppl worry about you...
don't be so self-centered...
U R SUCH A JERK!

lalala...

see my new baby, nt the leg.lol.

no title for this post, so i'll just briefly talk about what i've done for this few days.

i played badminton with my frens.

They played very very well.

the next day, nothing special happen, class from 8am to 6pm...was abit busy la...and i met my dream guy in FET , i was so excited and i have no idea what to do. ok someone will understand my feeling - the one who accompanied me to stalk my dream guy that day. such a bitch...! this will be his last sem and he's goin to graduate soon, so ofcoz i'll stalk him as much as i can la...later no chance d leh.

the other day->Friday! did my lab wif yw...and i think i'm an idiot. we needa construct the circuit and draw the waveform. after we've done with the circuit, there's no waveform coming out from the oscilloscope, den i started to scold the lousy oscilloscope, after that only i realised i din't on the power supply, so how could a waveform to be formed leh?such a stupid fellow. but he helped me alot...tq! after the lab carol they all went to mc d but i din follow, i went to pizza wif my other fren. 2 of us are so stupid drive untill the pizza hut in malim jaya. according to my fren, the environment there is nicer. walao eh, there are so many pizza nearby oso leh, we can go shakey or pizza hut or US pizza in dataran. but nvm la, i'm nt the one who drives.wakaka.

at night, my bro came back frm kl with his frens, so i brought them to jonker street lo, melaka is so lousy, everytime we'll go to the same place...especially at nite. so if u are from other places and plan to visit melaka, pls don't ask malaccan where's the nice place u can go, coz most probably they'll answer u something like ......'melaka? melaka got any special place meh? melaka is so boring...'. That's what i did to my other frens too.wahaha.

saturday->windows shopping with my besties. both of us have no money to buy anything, so we juz walked around lo...i hate myself for spending so much money for the past few month, now big sales in padini i also can only watch people buy. so geram. we also went to some sport shops to have a look. i saw a nike sport shoes, very very nice one...and i plan to buy it. my fren wanna buy a pair of nike shoes for her bf oso...but of coz the guy will pay for that shoes la. and i tell her ' ok, i'll bring my mum here'(so my mum will pay for me)nenene. and she said 'yer u very teruk' .lol. she'll bring her bf here oso la.( perempuan tak guna...sport shoes only also needa bring mummy to come).

sunday-> we sent my bro back to his college again...the time when we back to melaka, it's already afternoon. so my dad just drive around melaka town again lo...coz we nt planning to go home so early ma. it's so boring to jalan jalan in melaka....so i juz took some snapshot...ohya forgot to talk about my camera! i found it few days ago in a box full of exercise book! this camera ar...my dad bought it as my birthday present when i was in form 4. so it's a old model la. olympus one leh...although it's abit old and outdated, but i still sayang it very much la, since thisce camera has been neglected for so long time already. i used it for few times only, nt more than 10 times...haha. if my dad know about this he's goin to chop me d.lol. my ideal camera will be DSLR , who wanna sponsor?lol. my birthday will be on 26 DEC. xmas gift oso can la. i won't mind one.(so thick face one this perempuan) .nite, i brought my mum to the sport shop again to buy my favourite shoes. and too bad it already sold out and no more stock...

mum : y u wanna buy sport shoes? u still got 3 pairs at home.

me: tat one very nice, the shoes at home can throw already, so long time d.

mum: dunno how to earn money then waste so much money. cnt buy, ur shoes are still ok, still can wear it.

me:(started to manja)yer but tat one rilly nice, comfortable somemore...(i convinced her to buy for me)

mum: ok la juz take the shoes u want la.faster faster.

me: but the one oredi sold out...i only wan that one...

mum: y dun u juz choose another brand(pointing to adidas)

me: no i dont want, adidas is for malay guy...(what a stupid theory)

mum: but u oredi have 2 pairs of nike at home, choose other brand la!

me: then don't want la...let's go home...( purposely show my dissapoited face in front her)

mum: let's go other shop to have a look.

me:*wink wink*

so.... since we couldn't find the same model of the shoes, i bought another model in mp nike shop!yay....but it's more expensive la. but i *heart* it.

tq mum! i' love u!!!! i'll but a new set of cosmetic for u next time.wahaha.

ohya last week i received another birthday present frm my frens!haha. a present late for 2 months. it's a pair of ear ring. it's branded one i think coz it has warranty card one leh. arigato!