2009/05/31

No boundaries

If you watched American Idol season 8, i'm sure u know about this song. This song inspired me alot. it's time for me to make final decision. i'll stop contradicting myself after making the decision.


Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want
But how long can you wait
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you've lost your way

What if my chances were already gone
I started believing that I could be wrong
But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit you stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets
Don't know where the future's headed
Nothing's gonna bring me down
Jumped every bridge I've run every line
I risk being safe, I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can


You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule cause there's nothing between you and your dreams

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
No boundaries Yeah, there are no boundaries

2009/05/27

写给最敬爱的你

我知道你再也听不到我讲心事了,我也没机会听你骂我白痴,但我真的不能接受你去世的事情。从认识你的那一天你就跟我讲了很多关于梦想和理想的事,我就每次找机会反驳你。等到自己想法变成熟时候才开始慢慢同意你所说的一堆道理。就也因为这样你变了一位跟我很好谈的朋友。
你说过你从小的梦想就拥有一间完美的屋子,所以你选读了建筑系,你说你很享受你拥有的一切,当时的我真的很羡慕你。
当你问我我的梦想时,我会变得沉默及不开心,因为我知道自己的梦想和理想离我越来越远了。你要我去追求自己的梦想,自己会变得开心,也会给自己一个很好的交代,如果错失了就什么都没了。
梦想永远就是离我那么的远,自己又没胆在勇往直前,最后还被你骂了一顿。我也只能把你所说的一切当作耳边风,因为自己的能力真的很有限。
那时当你知道我去应征时,你很兴奋,但我的决定还是令你失望了。
自己每次觉得自己是个没用的窝囊废,不会为梦想而前进的人。每次跟你谈天时我才会觉得自己是位有梦想的人,而且梦想就在我眼前。你的鼓励和用心我能感觉到。
现在你走了,感觉就像你带走了一切,我的梦想全都消失了。。。
今天的浪有点大,我真的很希望你能够听到或看到我说跟你讲的东西。上了MSN也再也看不到你了。
你跟我说过有心事就要跟你讲,现在的我找不到你了。我很希望自己永远只是在一场梦里面。
每次不管讲到什么话题你都说“等我回来时我要。。。。”,现在你会来也再看不到你了。我恨你没有为了自己的梦想而去跟病魔战斗!
这几天真的想了很多,今年21岁了,我真的很不想再过那种得过且过,没意义,颓废,没人生目标的生活了。我把你的话记牢牢地记住了,该放弃的就改放弃,改争取的就不该放弃,我真的不想再浪费时间了。
自己也不知道自己能活多久,健康也比别人差,人算不如天算,我不想改次才后悔。
不知道你能不能再天堂看到我的blog,至少你也是我的忠实读者。。。想要烧架电脑也不能,天堂也收不到吧。。。
想说的是真的很高兴每次在我又难事给予的帮助和辅导,我会像你一样,为梦想而努力奋斗!

2009/05/26

他离开我们了

他,一声不响的离开我们了。在我们不知情下就走了。这几天都在以泪洗脸。
最近的日子活得很不开心,考试也考得一蹋糊涂,自己根本没有想过要去读考试,所以没什么读就去考了。
上星期接到了一封电话,还以为他回来度假,怎知电话另一边是一位妇女的声音,是王妈妈,自己是有点吓倒了。 当她说他儿子在美国刚过世时,自己真的是吓倒了,一直不敢相信她所说的一切,但想一下哪有人的妈妈酱无聊把自己儿子性命开玩笑,当时的我显得很冷静。王妈妈只是叫我和几个朋友去他的家拿些他儿子早就打算要给我们的东西。
过了十分钟,我开始哭了,我崩溃了。。。事情发生得太突然了,我根本无法接受事实,心情无法平静下来。
一位明明健康很好的大好年轻人就这样而离开我们了。从那刻开始,我回忆起很多很多的东西,根本没把考试放在眼里了。连续哭了几天,这几天我都去了海边,很希望你就像戏里面可以出现在我面前听我说话。
这些情景就跟去年我婆婆去世一样,自己变得没方向了。跟其他人说时他们也吓倒了。
王妈妈说过将他骨灰洒去大海,所以我就去了海边了。人生就是那么的无常,我们不知道明天将会发生什么事。
他是一位很难得朋友,是一位很能够谈的知心朋友,只要自己有什么为题就会跟他说,虽然认识的日子不长。
现在的他回归他最喜欢的海洋, 我希望小天使能够保护他。

2009/05/16

lame jokes

Sometime lame jokes are ..very lame..and they're not funny..
but some lame jokes are actually smart..
but sometimes ppl don't get lame jokes.. and well.. these ones are pretty simple to understand..
This joke was told by one of my fren, thanx for making me laughed.
he asked: why the sea is blue?
i gave him 2 logical answer which i think 'sure correct one!"
try to answer all of these questions in the lamest way you can think of.
i answered : 1)coz of the reflection of the sky
2)coz the sea is very deep...?haha!
but my answers are all wrong!
guess wat's his answer?
he described it in a very very funny way.
i remembered he says: u see hor, try to think what we have in the sea? is fish! so...we got billions of fish swimming in the sea rite? when they breathe under water, they will blow bubble in the water, the moment they blew the bubble out, got some sound effect "blu~ blu~". one fish "blu" for so many times, try to count how many times when billions of fish "blu" together... thats why the sea becoming blue colour lo.

*5 seconds of silence*

after that only i got the joke and started giggling. such a lame joke!!!! lmao
so when i asked my mum about this, i only gt one word frm her "sampat".haha!
So lame man.
But its good! =)

I think maybe it was due to the fact that we all are stressed in preparation for our test...but something really drove me into hysterics and laughing fits today.

2009/05/14

American idol final top 2


kris allen



adam lambert
yay just like what i'd predicted long time ago, these are my final top 2! haha!
bye gokey...
go adam! go kris! kris looked so charming when he plays piano.
one more thing to mention here...
now only i noticed my driving license expired long long time ago d!!!!! and i still drive here and there, and recently there are so many road blocks! haha! still drive like nothing goin to happen.
it's no use for me to bring wallet go out also. same outcome ...haha!
everytime when i see road block, the first thing i'll do is to check whether i bring my wallet or not. i got bring...so what?lol.

2009/05/13

today hits

一朵云能载多少思念的寄托
再忽然相遇街头
当我们擦身而过
那短短一秒钟 都明白什么都变了
一转身谁能把感慨抛在脑后 在事过境迁以后
这段情就算曾经 刻骨且铭心过 过去了又改变什么
地球它又公转几周了 浓情爱恋都已陌生了嗯~
我不难过了 甚至真心希望你能幸福
当我了解 你只活在记忆里头
我不恨你了 甚至原谅你的残酷理由
当我了解不爱了 连回忆都是负荷
我不难过了 甚至真心希望你能幸福
当我了解 你只活在记忆里头
我不恨你了 甚至感谢这样不期而遇
当我从你眼中发现我已是陌生人了 我已是陌生人了
been very moody and hot tempered this few days without any reason.(not bcoz of exam)
don't want to talk to anyone or even reply their messages.
once i received their messages, i deleted it.
I am really annoyed and i'm not even sure WHY exactly.
guess i really need someone to talk to.
alright i'll be fine after finished eating my ice cream now.hehe.

dont leave any comment here pls.

2009/05/10

i'm such a failure

is sunday! rotting alone at home,coz i gt nothing to do.
ohya happy mother's day too. see so sorrowful, dunno where my family gone now. guess they are enjoying outside now.
before they went out this morning, my mum leave a msg - guai guai stay home and study.
see!!!!!! so sien sial...
if u really understand me well, u shud know wat i'm doin now. wahaha. (ofcoz i'm blogging now)
i rather spend my time browsing the net, watch all the dramas, or juz staring at the monitor.
if i go out with them, i'll feel so sorry to myself, next week exam!!! n i havent started anything yet!! and my frens all are swallowing their notes now!
n i still so slack.
but minority of them hor...fake fake appear offline... but playing their facebook ...i caught u all d. yay gimme 5! we same type shud stay together!

2009/05/09

Marathon

juz like wat i've said before, if you keep something that you wanted to tell for too long in ur mind, there's not much that need to be said.
so i'll juz write something that still fresh in my mind that happened in the past few weeks.
haha...too many things to tell la.
first, my cousin brought me to her bf's cafe in subang coz last time she promised that she will show me a very talented guy who can sing and play piano very very well. and yes, she proved it! the guy sang most of the song chosen by me! i was abit shocked as he really can sings very very well! fell in love with him when he played the first node. cool! see ...thats y i loves lee hom so much. guys who can sing n play instrument are so attractive! lol. i could remember the song that i wanted him to sing...
1) mo sheng ren- tanya tsai
2)forever love-lee hom
3)lian shang ling yi ge ren-you hong ming
4)zui xing fu de shi-liang wen yin
someone might ask 'how come he sings all the songs one?'
lol haha my cousin asked for it ma, so he must give face to me also, i came all the way from melaka leh.

second- sing k with 3 bunch of frens in different day, sing untill i promised myself that i wont step into karaoke for the coming weeks/months. phobia d. especially when u sit there and sing for 5 hrs, gila d. the most funny thing was when they choose the crazy frog's song! haha! wat to sing? they only made the speaker full blast and u oni can sing the 'ting ting ting' thing.haha.

third- i drove to many places again. lol. the spirit of an explorer.

4th- busy doin assignments and test.

5th- JUST PASSED UP MY LAST ASSIGNMENT! The past few weeks had been indescribable that there's no word in my mind can describe how hectic it was. I hereby, apologize to my group members for any possible inappropriate/annoying acts/behavior/attitude of mine. Thank you so much for bearing with me.

6th- the submittion day for our last assignment. after we done the assignment we went to kfc. so so LUCKY C's car puntured when we were on the way...first i tot she was trying to play with me. my car was behind her car. so i tot she trying to drive slow slow juz like wat my other frens did to me. they will suddenly speed up but den sudddenly slowed down. so i cnt follow too near. that time i cnt tahan d so i decided to overtake their car lo...haha. and the interesting parts come. suddenly i saw her car stopped at the middle of the road. it surprised me. i still thought they were trying to play with me. then i stopped at the side also lo... see how long she wanna stop at the middle of the road and waiting for the other passed by car to horn them. issh i'm so childish to have this kinda of thinking. haha. hmm...long story, don't want to continue d...so we call R n S to help us la.

7- alright we've done all the assignment and no class that day.(i forgot wat day). i've promised my frens to play badminton n watch movie...but i ffk. haha! dunno la, i got no mood to go anywhere as the weather was so hot!!!!! so i stayed at home whole day. sleep, eat and play- my custom. hmm... i spent my day playing the facebook oso since my fb oso like mati katak d. fb is so happening la but the problem is i dunno how to use it. i did some test also. ah a pig form pluto asked me to creat a test for myself. so my frens took the test also lo...

8- sunday, my sister and i sent my bro back to his college again coz parents got things to do. oh gosh got accident occured on the highway, traffic jam frm dunno where to seremban. trapped in the jam for 2 hours!

9th- boring day again... went to aunt's house with my sis...and i drew a very very nice eyebrow for the cat. i'll show the pic next time! SUPER cute one. back home, i did something to my dog also...i laughed untill cnt stop. so kesian to the pets. eh i dunno how the ah beng knows i abused them lo. i wrote ' i abused them.so funny' in my msn personal message oni.
beng : puppies and kittens? U R SO MEAN!
me: eh how u know?
beng: serious ar? wat a biatch!
me : aiya i did something on thme oni ma, next time i'll show u the pic.lol.
beng:becareful u got raped! did u kick them? or poke the kitten's eyes with ur high heels?
we had a very very funny conversation. talked like he did the same thing to his pet oso.haha.

10- suddenly wanna play badminton, so i asked N to play, and he asked his frens too. i spent so much credit to sms my frens to aks them to play together. same for N too...but ended up...no we din't play,we'd cancelled our plan, coz i nvr noticed that i'll b having my class frm 4-7pm. we planned to play at 5pm or 6pm or 7pm. so i kena bom by N again, saying that i very very blur. i already reached the highest level.

11-got wesak procession at nite. supposed i can go to watch it...but stupid brother la...came back melaka so late...i went to pick him in sentral already 9.15pm d...traffic jam somemore. by the time i reached the sam poh hill there, the procession already over, if wanna watch , i needa drive to tenkera there. stupid meh... i dunwanna be the idiot who stuck in the jam if u oredi knew that it will happened.

12- suppossed to study at home d la...final is juz around the corner! but i went to watch xman with my fren. it's a good movie if u r a fan of xman, else u might find it boring. it might be a lil boring but the fighting parts were awesome. hmm..for me...it's juz soso la.

lastly... I LOVE ADAM LAMBERT AND KRIS ALLEN!!!!( although they are not related with this post)

american idol season 8

haha my final top three would be adam lambert, kris allen and the only girl allison since this season started.
however allison has been terminated this week...sad case. at least adam n kris are in the final now! so happy! danny gokey...still ok ok la...he sings well, but abit bored if you listen his songs for too many times. and he doesn't has any idol look! haha! adam is HOT and kris is CUTE! i wish one of them will win in this competition.
i really really like the song sang by adam- mad world. u shud go watch it. i love him!

2009/05/07

haha!
was so free la today...don't know why. got 2 hours class in the morning only and we almost done all our syllabus.
after 10am, c and wy asked me to go for movie but i rejected them, after that they goin to play badminton, and i refused to go also. means tmr i sure kena whacked by them d.
too many things to tell here.
but now i'm goin to my bed.sleep.lol

2009/05/06

recently i got so many chinese blogs.haha!

2009/05/03

things that happened today

超级忙!
父母和安哥去了巴生不懂搞什么鬼。
我和姐载少爷回学校。
高速公路塞车到高关!!!!因为明天开工啦。。。
顺便见了阿Bong 一下叫他教我做assignment.我们走头无路了,大哥就介绍我这条生路。
这条生路也好不到哪去。。。电脑hang掉。题目看了几百次才大概大概讲给他听。
由于时间上的关系,我必须赶回来,因为GOZILLA 说今晚要讨论ASSIGNMENT.
被捆在车龙一小时半,因为有车祸。妈啊。。。我已经够惨了。什么都没做到!!
过后竟然在高速公路上给我看到阿郭跟他女友,哈哈!真巧!
过后红毛丹又打给我说要给我东西,因为他要回新家玻了,我唯有超速咯。。。
我没带钱包和身份证。。。忽然觉得自己越来越厉害了。整个路程都在给姐骂。。。
阿bong 说明天才给我答案,我也不知他到底会不会做。。。
明天等死吧!!!!!!