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跟你玩个游戏，

类是过关斩将，规则：不许喊累，不能申冤，不可发牢骚，没得发脾气，不能哭，不能complain, 最好不要说太多话。

可以选放弃，不然就一直往前冲，一关又一关，躲避一波又一波迎面盖来的大浪。

对 ！ 只能躲避！不能发表意见，不可防守也没得反击。

这样，你才能继续过关，到终点就会有奖品。奖品是？那只有能到达终点的人才能知道。

问题是：你根本看不到终点在哪里，你会放弃吗？

talking about...

SELF-OBSESSED?

Studying with a camera or phone is as seductive  as bringing a group of choir to the library. agree?

can't help myself ....

Gt myself a pair of contact lenses few weeks ago(forced by my dai lou).

what i can say is it's SOOOOOO uncomfortable.

so i'll only wear it when it's necessary.

wearing a glasses will always make me look like a good girl kan?*evil laugh*

But i know atleast my case is much more better than the bird.

coz she can't even fit the lenses into her eyes.wahahaha.

Not discrimination

Now i started believing that he's a gay.

I'm not discriminating or what, i'm just....*what a pity*

累了

自己感觉到累了，累到自己很想放弃一切，放弃关于所有自己的事情，放弃生命。
从来没想过自己会那么的痛苦，每天都过着左右为难的日子，自己却不知道该怎么做。每天都有步见步的过生活。
妈妈的病到现在也没什么好转，所以自己的负担也变重了。
自己永远要在做选择中徘徊，要看店？照顾妈妈？考试读书？我知道我不是那种能一心二用的人，自己却又不想妈妈再劳累了，所以做了一个很艰难的决定。
自己也许太高攀自己的本领了吧，以为白天作功做家务晚上可以温习功课，但这是根本不可能的事。晚上的我已经累到不能说话了，根本没精力再去做任何的事。
这次的小考我考得一团糟，我很难想象自己要怎样去跟AA解释。他还说这次可以拿second upper 给他看。他就是酱变态，没有firstclass 就必须去见他。所以大家都可以明白为什么我每次都要去见他了吧。。。
也许大家都认为这是自己的选择，我也许可以选择读书不去帮爸妈。
但是我想大家都不会了解吧，当你曾经失去过最心爱的人或东西时，你会不想再失去了，你会不顾一切的去珍惜。
而我，也失去过了太多，我不想再失去了。
为了家，我已经放弃了很多东西。
放弃了友情，爱情，学业，放弃了好多好多。
有时觉得上天对我很不公平，每次都给我那么多的考验，每次到要考试的时候就是特别多的事情发生在我身上。自己每次都跟别人不一样。
以前的我活得潇洒，想要出去便拿了车钥匙便出去溜了。现在呢，要出的时候会顾虑到很多东西，店有人顾吗？妈妈身体好了吗？他们午餐或晚餐要吃什么呢？
觉得自己在一夜之间成长和成熟了很多。看着别人该读书时间就读书，玩的时候可以玩，自己却什么都做不到，有时会很不服。
每天自己都过着忧郁的日子，太多事情去烦，以往的开心已经消失了。朋友都说我很blue，心不在焉。
朋友说或许这是件好事，我可以更早看到一切，尽着一些责任，至少改天不会后悔。也许对吧。。。
Family，is my strength, my everything.

Childhood memories

This blog is far from being dead. Its just that I have a lot to talk about but things are getting pretty crazy, especially trying to juggle my wants and needs at the same time .....You know what i meant.
There was something funny happened just now when i was walking around in shopping mall. There were 2 little children (sibling) walking infront me with their parents. Parents were too busy buying something.
The brother (ard 4 years old) was very caring for his sister(ard 3 years old). here's their dialogue:
brother : don't touch this! follow me!
sister : why u scold me?! i ask ah pu ne ne to catch you!
(a bangladeshi was standing beside them)
see! they are so cute right? tho it's just a very short conversation but it made me laugh for half an hour.
emm it's kinda like the term we still using now "i don't wanna to friend/good with you!".
i miss all this memories.
next few blogs will be some emo post.
ohya one more thing, i did not know that once i changed my blog address, it means that the old one cannot be used d.haha. so i'll change it back again la.  but who cares, i don't expect anyone to read it.

worries...

is sunday now.
2 more days will be having my midterms.
tuesday and wednesday.
and now i'm just about to start revising.
alot to study n memorise, i know i have not much time to study.
since everyone went back to study again, i becoming stress again.
study? take care my mum or shop? household?
too much to do and worry about. seriously.
i know i shouldn't be so stressed up. later sendiri also got problem.
pls help me n bless me.
i need 48hrs a day.
oh ya, happy cny.

millions of thoughts running thru my mind.

but i just can't figure it out,
super moody now. . .
你不是真正的快乐。。。
*SIGNING OFF*