Last night...i mean this morning

‘Let’s welcome our sinling n giv her a clap!!!’ –sumone

Boo sama dia!!! –Everyone

Ok ok I noe I’m sure some of u miss reading my blog n find it not even updated .The one tat has been updated last few weeks juz a blog tat I give chance to u ppl to scold me one. haha! I’ve to admit tat I haven’t been blogging for quite a while. Yes , this will be the last time …I think…coz I’m going to use blogger soon!

Actually this week is my study week. I supposed to study but ended up staying in front the tv… as a result I needa burn the midnight oil! Too bad it’s not easy to burn the oil coz everytime when I’m trying to burn the oil,there’s sumthing will burnt out in my house one…lol!jk jk! I’m trying to make sum jk here but I noe…it’s nt funny at all.lol! Hmm…juz wanna say tat everyday when the clock struck 12,my stomach will start to make sum weird noise. It’s not I’m hungry,but it juz… donno lah…automatically one! The only way to solve tis problem is EAT! Yes,it is!!! Even I juz taken my dinner at 11pm..but it juz start to growl!

For those who noes me well…it’s time for my snack to sacrifice themselves!*evil laf* I got so~~~ many snacks hiding in my bag n drawer! They r my savior! I think I’m gaining extra weight again! But no worries, do more exercise I think shud b ok oredi!yes I’m trying to console myself! any comment?lol!I’m alone….eh..not really alone, coz my dog’s wif me now. He’s the only one who will accompany me every night! i needa share my snack wif him so tat I can study peacefully!

Oh ya , almost forgt to introduce my dog to u all! Wat’s his name? hmm…I dunno coz he seems like got a lot of name .My dad calls him Jimmy or Johnny….my mum calls him Baby…my lil bro calls him Boy,doggie… dunno la! And I used to call him TIKO!(combination of the name the ppl I hate),now i call him dog dog! haha! But nvm, coz no matter wat’s the name u call, he’ll answer u one! no worries! He’s a very smart yet stupid dog!He’s smart bcoz… dunno la… juz smart! He can read our mind one! He noes I hate him(I’m scared of animals)T.T! tat’s y he owaz pisses in front my room! So basically u’ll b able to hear my sweet screaming early in the morning! Bsides, he likes to bite my shoes n hide it sumwhere else…isn’t he’s smart?lol!

Omg I cnt concerntrate study now! I’m so regret for no studying for a few days ago! There’s sumthing more attractive disruption when during my study time and I cant resist it…!The dramas n the movies!shit la,I almost finished all the movies but I cant finish my notes!

I tried to concerntrate but I cant! One of my best fren called me a few days ago middle of the nite! I was so excited to hear frm her since it’s been ages since we last talked! The problem is tat I had too many things to tell her and I dunno where to start frm! We chatted for about 1 hour or more than tat…I’m not so sure abt it! The only thing tat I noe is my phone suddenly gt fever! it was damn hot! And sumthing wrong wif her phone too! Tat’s y we needa stop our conversation. If I were to include telling for all the stuff ,it would certainly take days to finish our conversation. I miss u so much dear! Hope we can meet up soon!

The next nite,the same thing..sms wif another fren nonstop!until both of us fall asleep,talked abt our uni life…bf….gf…food…our frens….fashion…gossip…! WTF again! I tot I supposed to study one!!! Tat’s y I say I can easily influenced by other ppl. Omg I oredi missed so many days!our conversation like endless!

Last nite…I mean this morning around 3.32am,I’m still so fresh! yea I make it! Hoho! Nobody find me tonite ! juz argued n crapped wif a youngster for awhile oni…n I think he oredi fall asleep like a pig(youngster if u r reading this…yes I’m talking abt u)!hoho! Not to forget, wanna talk about a funny genius. I donno how cum he can sms n asked me to hang out wif him yet he was sleeping tat time! until donno 3^rd or 4^th msg only he tells me tat actually he was sleeping! Omg sleeping half way but still can sms wif me!hmm..i still cant get any idea…mayb this is so called Genius! Anyway,I’m waiting for u to wear a bikini first den only I’ll go out wif u!^_^v

Omg…see! Once I start to write,I cant stop nimore! those who noes we sure u can understand it!my dog is sleeping now(after finished all my snack) he ate half of my snacks! ok…enuf rambling…will continue it after my final!

Well tat’s all for now!

thanx for being the one

always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cry

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok

I miss you

I've never felt this way before

Everything that I do reminds me of you

And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor

And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now

We were made for each other

Out here forever

I know we were

All I ever wanted was for you to know

Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul

I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me

I love this song very much!!! i would like to sing it to one of my best fren in my life(too bad coz i can't sing)....Ppl owaz tot tat this song only suit for those who r in love ...those couple who r staying far apart frm each other...those who juz broke up.haha!It's quite a meaningful song tat i feel like wanna cry when the first time i heard it.

Orite is rilly nice to hav a fren like u! our frenship is sumthing ppl only can wish for! u r the one who owaz support n accompany me all the time!!! juz like 7-11! 24hr service! the most important thing is u can noe n guess wat's i'm thinking!!! u r the only one who will 'layan' me all the time!!!quite touched one...even sumtimes u r so so so so~~~~~ busy!sorry for disturbing u when the time u doin ur assignment or studying for ur exam! but still ...u did it well!congratulate!!! i donno whether it's coz of u gt the motivation to study when the time i talk to u...*blush*

Thanx for accompanied me to go through evrything in my life...especially this year! i owaz think tat God doesn't loves me at all! until u make me believe tat He's still loves me! u owaz there to help me whenever i'm in dilemma n depression...thanx alot!! i noe i owe u many things...i'll try my best to compensate it before u leave this lovely place! our life is getting tougher n tougher! n we wont be contacting each other so frequently...!wish u all the best in ur future undertaking!

nah,finished reading n crying? lol! hope tat ur dream will come true la!

i wont go there anymore!!!!!!

Wow...today before i go to my class i went to e petrol station. Actually evrything is juz like a normal, e guy will help me to fill up e fuel. When e car oredi fuelled n ready to go...suddenly e guy asked for my name n he said wanna be my fren! I was so surprised yet i was shocked wif his action! I never tot someone will ask a question at e petrol station, a worker summore! Sice i'm smart enuf...i pretend tat i din hear wat he's asking(my fren said i'm e most stupid gal coz using this method...lol)...who noes...he asked again! Omg! I really donno how to do nimore...then i hav to answer him " of course...y not?"(stupid la) After tat...he aske dfor my phone num! That moment juz got one thing came out in my mind...tat is..."Sinling...u die la!" Really,i'm so scared! I was hoping tat my superman or watever man will come n save me,but e fact is...who will helps me????????? I nid someone to protect me! Actually wanna call my dad one...wahahaha! But still then...since i said i'm e "smartest gal" in the world...i quickily close e door n tell him tat i'm almost late for my class!(my fren said he can confirmed tat i'm e most stupid gal in e world) then...*POOF*!!! i'm gone! wahahaha! speed as fast as i can! As a conclusion...i swear i wont go there nimore!even e petrol oredi empty i still wont go there one!Dad,pls make sure e petrol is full....sob sob!

Wat shud i do?

I hope to do more bt there r only 24 hours in a day.I oso wish 2 hav a wonderful life n yet think of living a simple and quiet life.My fren said,hope to do a lot,but time is owaz limited.It is easy to idle away time,but difficult to treasure time.Idling away moments of our life may hav a significant impact on our whole life. Therefore,waste nt any minuteor second of our life. Make full use of our time to fill our life wif interesting n meaningful activities.Example:eat, sleep,watching tv,laugh,talk...blagh blagh blagh...wahahaha!this is wat i'll do evryday one!Place lesses importance in pursuing fame n fortune.It is difficult to derive spiritual hapiness if one is nt willing to forgot some materialistic joy.

Simple mind

Simple mind is nt the same as being simple-minded or ignorant. It means purity wif our minds n focus in our thinking. A person wif pure mind is normally nt so easily affected by e surrounding ...like me...lol! A single-minded person stays focused wif objectives n is normally energetic; n as such he /she is nt easily distracted by difficulties and failures. Most times it is our mind tat is complicated and nt so much bcoz of e circumstance n ppl. Finally,if ever there is anything tat is complicated,e best prescription is kip e mind pure as evrything starts from e mind!

Lives fill with compassion and understanding

Logical thinking enables us to hav an insight and to be broadminded and objective. Wif this breakthrough in conventional thinking, we will be able to emphathize and understand the mental state of those afflicted by a biased way of thinking. Our outlook on life wil be enlighted.

By conventional thinking,1 plus 1 owaz equal to 2,but if we apply logical thinking, there could be many variations and many answer. The answer could be 11 or even 1(if we stuck up the two gigures of 1).Likewise,it could be 3,asin the case of married couple with a child.Or e answer could be zero,as in the case of a positive conditionmeeting with a negative condition.

Similarly,'0' may mean different things to different people. It might mean the numeral zero to a maths teacher,an alphabet letter to an english teacher,an oxygen to a chemistry teacher.From this example,we learn tat we can look atthings from many perspective.We should put ourselves in other ppl's shoes .

On one occasion,a psychiatrist asked a mental patient,' How wud u feel if i remove one of ur ears?"The patient replied,"I wouldn't be able to hear nimore."The phychiatrist considered tat a normal answer.Then he asked e patient,"Wat if i remove e other ear?"The patient said,"Then,i would'nt be able to see."Surprised and excited wif this answer,the phychiatrist quaried,"Why so?"The patient replied,"Bcoz i wud nt be able to wear my glasses." lol!

So..in life,different ppl may look at e same thing different and hence arrive at different conclusion.Hence, whether it is rite or wrong,everything depends on the notions of our minds. We must train our minds to think logically.

I'm not happy anymore...

Last few days i was so depressed...!Again,today i'm not in the good mood!I juz dunno how come this few day i got all this stuff of feeling....is it i think too much?

Sumtimes i can hate myself very much,juz hope tat i can dissapear frm the world; Sumtimes i can love myself very much,juz hope tat i can marry with myself...sound crazy? lol! Gosh, wat a life is this???

I'm puzzling in my life again? Emm...is true!The same thing i'll do ....isolate myself in the room...others ppl...NO ENTER! Why suddenly all this stuff thing came into my mind? My fren said already 18,big gal liao...already matured...need to develope emotionally and start to behave likea sensible adult...I juz wonder izit everyone's thinking will become so negative?

Now i'm negative...really! What am i doing now? Why owaz negative? Can say tat i was deeply disturbed and depressed by my life now! I'm not the happy and cheerful stupid gal now...! Everything aroud me looks so fake!!!!Waiting for my savior to help me...lol!Who will be the savior leh?

How to face it?

Wat is reality? Haiz...i hate it! The harsh reality of life really make me refuse to face it! The better one will survive and the weak one will be kicked out?Tall and handsome guy is the best? Pretty and slim gal? Wat the xxxx is this?No logic anymore!!!!Ppl likes to compare among themself!The weak one will owaz been isolated by others!The rich one owaz looks down on the poor one!Y need to be so real???We all human living in the same world too...no differences...!

Boring

Wa! Family all went out already...juz left me at home...!Actually goin to study...but ended with sleeping like a pig...lol!Coz really sleepy and tired!Thanx for the uncle who provide me a 'WONDERFUL' night yesterday...!It was a scary night!Until i almost cry...bring my amulet all e time to protect myself... !Luckily i still got my new "bf"---Gareth Gates la...hoho! accompany me to release my fear..lol!

My room is so messy now...long time never tidy up my room already...haha!i prepared so many snacks...the floor... table... bed...all full of my baby snacks!wahahaha!Everyone who walk pass my room sure will ask e same question..."are u goin to camping or holiday?" haha!so hungry now...goin to find something to eat first!

i love Gareth Gates!!! yahoo!

Wow....suddenly i love him so much without any reason!Juz becoz of his song,i became his super fans!I engrossed with his song...once i listen to his song, i don need to do anything,wat i needa do is juz lying on my bed !His song attract me so much!I keep repeating his song whole day from morning untill night!wahaha!Goin to crazy liao one!But his song really nice!The best song i ever heard before!Once i listen to his song,i'll feel so blissful all e time!

? ? The song i love the most: Unchained melody,What my heart wants to...,and the super nice song-- With u all e time!Walao, all these song really make me goin to crazy soon...although it's no longer a new song anymore...wahahaha!

wat to buy?

Tonight will be a suffering night for me...!I'm planning not to study in my room..coz everytime when i study in my room,then i'll heard something...and it is repeating ..say 'come on baby,come on baby,i know u wan me...'! Than sure i will coaxed by the word one...!BINGO!That sentence comes from my bed...once i study in my room,sure i'll fall asleep as fast as i can!so better don study in my room!

Juz now my broter phoned n ask 3 of us wat to buy on Mother's day...walao!i no money liao one,cnt afford to buy present for her!Luckily my brother said he 'll pay for evrything...haha!Rich guy owaz like tat one!haha!We spent a long time to discuss about the present,but still cant make any decision...!wat to buy leh?We got so many targets one...oven? microware? necklace?shoes?...Haiz !donno la!

sleepy and tired

Haiz...juz finished fishing and now so sleepy...it would to a tough night for me today!Now on9 awhile to make me alive but this really cant work! coz my eyes now oredi half close...lol!Tomorrow 9.00am i will having my chemistry lab test...i think i'm going to die now!Coz i donno where shud i start to study...and i oredi forgot all the experiment i had done before!So i need to start from the beggining!Gosh! So many observation i oredi forgotten!How do i survive for tomorrow?!I don hav the labsheet to study oso!So i really need to prepere to die!

Feel so frustrated now...lost again! Yesterday physic lab test i really did bad...so i cant imagine what will happened to my chemistry lab test.Today i stayed in the library with my houjimui to study,but we keep talking and gossip about other ppl things...haiz!Anyway,tonight i'm planning not going to sleep and study till next morning!hehe! But now i really very sleepy...how leh?hehe...since i'm the smartest gal in the world...i already prepare all the things that can make me alive! Yeah!

All snacks like mr potato,rocky chocolate stick,jack n jill crips,appolo cake,chewy gum,conneto ais cream,coca-cola,ice lemon tea, my mp4, game boy..wahahahaha!I think all these things already enough to 'semangatkan' me! lol! All these BABY will accompany me the whole night but oso will dissapear at this night...sob sob!Oh ya,i oso got my leehom's song and watermelon in the freez...so tonight will not be alone!wahahaha!One more thing...my phone!I will sms with my fren to avoid me to fall asleep too.......!but it doesn't reall work much ....coz yesterday my houjimui and i keep smsing and ended with me sleep till like a pig!

I enjoyed chatting with my houjimui coz we got the same characteristic n personalities! We owaz do the same thing together!We love to syok sendiri! This is one way to make us 'bersemangat',but i too 'semangat' till cannot concerntrate to study...sob sob...!So many secrets we talked about...!chichi,huihui,kingking,and all the spare tyres....wahahahaha!Feel so sweet when i review back our conversation...untill can laugh alone one!haha!ok...time for me to continue my terrible night lo...!but blissful oso...so many things will accompany me...wahahaha!

This ought be the 5th day....flu...cough...sore throuts...feel like dying now...!I hate all this things~!So many medicine oredi taken ...but still cannot work one...got worst only...!

Last night i still be able to go to the Wesak procession...coz i got duty to jaga the student...tat bunch of monkey really making me crazy one!Keep playing with me n talking to me! Tat time i oredi not feeling well but i still need to be nice to them and guard them...but ended with i kena bullied by them...so kesian!They don believe tat i oredi 19 yers old!Donno how to explain to them anymore!But wat really make me happy is they all satisfied with my service!hehe!Coz got the other gal keep scolding them!Then i am the one who keep helping them. lSuddenly we all become fren...!Juz for tat night la!

Now i cannot walk n talk oredi!Last night i walked for 3 hours...now my leg juz like oredi cacat liao...and i cannot talk oso...last night use to much voice to control tat bunch of monkey!Feel helpless now...!Now only can use typing to express my feelings...!

Now i juz hoping everything will back to normal...at least can talk ...so tat i can bully ppl again! wahahaha!

Today was a real busy day man! 8.00am class till 10.00pm....wow!2 hours break time but i din rest oso..coz need to go to the bank...damn lot of ppl! wasting my time there juz to wait 4 my turn!

Funny things happened again! 1st time go to the bank myself...with my sister la! Who knows after i park the car then juz going to enter the bank,i juz realised tat i din bring my wallet..i need my ic for the bank one....!then need to go back home to take again! the manager of the bank treat me like a child man! juz wan to tell him...'uncle..i no longer a small gal leh...!'

After tat, we go to the other bank..same thing happened again..i left my wallet inside the car...then i need to walk back to the car to take my wallte...walao! I think my sis will get maid liao one!

'INTERSTING' english class oso...most of the time evryone will sleep in the class...i think...coz too boring !i think only the 3 or 4 student sit in front will listen to the lec only...others leh?hehe!

we r having our own world! me ,shuting n huahrong played BINGO!We played till 4gt we still having our 'lovely' english class..hehe! N one of us suddenly shouted 'BINGO!'Wow....we r 'good' student man!but i 'm very soi one! never win one!we played so~ many rounds but juz only the sampating owaz 'BINGO'!i need to practise more...hehe!very geram...at least i need to win one time ma...!

Everyday we got our own characteristic one...me-owaz dreaming in the class..n drops all my thing from the table most of e time...shuting- owaz 'aiyo,very sien...my stomach pain...i wan to eat...today morning i laosai!(this is the sentence u'll hear everyday one!)huahrong-she loves to eat oso...owaz talk about food..n pick up my things 'terdropped' on the floor one (fergie fans i think...she will listen the mp3 from her phone with the loudest sounds man!even me oso can hear it !)eyvonne- owaz listen the mp3 from her phone(with e loadest voice i think(coz everytime we call her but she'll never asnwer u)...she'll having her own comic world liao one....she so concerntrate with the comic books ! Vivian-today she sit behind me,so i cant really noe wat she is doing...reading the boss of the Genting Highlands book...this is all e things we do in our english class 4 today...juz feel really funny...haha!1 group of us do nothing in the class...pity our english lecturer...feel so sorry!

Me n shuting gossip so much for today...she is Gossip Queen !She will spread the news with a very high speed one!Cnt tahan her!Sometimes juz a small little case but she can make the case become a big big case one! so, sometimes i'm very scared of her...Kesimpulanya:Berjaga-jaga dengan shuting,better don let her know so many things..u 'll regret one..lol!haha!

How to choose between reality and aspiration?Must one succumb to reality eventually?

Reality is for us to make the best use of the present while aspiration is for us to plan for the future.Both needs to complement one another and be pursued simultaneously.If you are unable to face reality,you cannot live in the present.If u do not hav easpiration, ur life lacks hope.Why not take the active approuch of ''not running away from reality' over the passive remark of 'succumb to reality'? It appears often that the one who can face up to reality,face problems and challenges is one who is mentally matured.

April Fool...

looks like i'm kinda dumb stupid gal liao one! Why i cant remember today is 1/4/07? April fool! 12.00am fooled by tat stupid super lengcai uncle! After tat is the bon bon cat! Then Piggie ....then my daddy...then ....kena fooled by 6 ppl in the same night!

Really zhadao one! Y i cant remember the date one?The daddy one is the most stupid joke one! Luckilly i retaliate liao..haha! I wan to fool ppl but then failed! Y so hard to fool ppl but i can easily been fooled one?.... u noe y? coz i'm good and honest ma...donno how to lie one....and i oso wan to entertain ppl only (still need to jaga face...and try to console myself...haha)

Boring...alone at home....family went out...without telling me! Sleep too much liao...overslept owaz like tat one...lol!2mr got my exam..need to study...!I'm wasting my phone credit to fool ppl....but no body kena fooled one...only 2ppl...haiz! I think is bcoz they too cautious liao! Sure one! (or i'm using stupid way to trick them?...cnt be one...i'm so smart!...lol!) now juz left RM0.42...how to use this 'big' amount of money leh???? now still thinking...lol!

Start from now....be careful frenz around! Since got ppl say i'm dumb! Tat person tat u need to be careFOOL!

Shitty day

What happened to me now? Why suddenly feel so down? Is it is the syndrome of the exam? Is not!Juz not in the good mood now,2mr got exam...and now is 12.50am liao...not really start to study leh...biomechanic somemore...need to memorize so many things...!

So many things suddenly came out in my mind, what i really need to do now i also donno...almost cry after listen to the songs...come on...what am i thinking now? I already tried to not think about all these stuff thing so much liao...but i can't! No one can help me now,even the closest one...!

Juz can say that...i'm in darkness again now...someone hear me? Don try to ask me about that question again...it alwaz make me in dilemma...! Juz leave me alone...! Or i need to disappear again to find out all the answers for myself?

i miss 2006!

2006...,how to describe this year leh? Happy? Sad? UNforgetable?Fun? Emm...not really!Now i'm reviewing back 2006....!

Jan-march,What i'm doing in this 3 month leh?Shit...nothing man!Juz been playing and hav fun a lot!i waste my 3 month juz 4 playing! What the life is this?I'm wasting my time!!!!!!!!!! I want to work,but parents don let one,say too dangerous..blagh...blagh!Everytime i mentioned about work,they sure will start to shoot me with their mouth..and i juz need to listen ..!Haiz!Really, i wasting my time!

SPM released lo! Nothing to write about this,juz need to make decision whether to continue form 6, uni or college.Oh gosh, it really beats me man! All this questions owaz drive me bananas!Somehow...,i know i already made a stupid decision liao..that is studu in MMU in Melaka...still my place...sien!

Why choose MMU? I wonder yyyyyy? Parents answer 1)near my house 2)can go back home everyday 3)Good quality...? yakah? no comments! 4)cannot study so far,later got kidnnaped..what a stupid answer is it huh? 5)I donno how to take care myself..it's true,but i can learn! 6)I donno how to do household,need to bring a maid wif me...and...too many liao!

They owaz say,"ok,up to u, u make ur own decision..."But at the end i even don hav the 'pleasure' to open my mouth! Sometimei really want to have a demonstration againts parents with a title 'i want freedom!'

School opened,haiz ...boring man!classmate?all boring oso...only got a bunch of frens i can crap to...the others juz like talking to the book one!i't s totally different with my previous school...got weird classmate oso..!I hate here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Beginning

Haha...blog...quite strange for me...last time...but now can see that everyone have their own blog...so i also have to upgrate myself lo...creat my blog!Just want to review what i had done in my life..especially now...uni life!What the stupid things i had done also...!Really,so many stupid things i can do one..!But good also la...memorable ma!